Whee. Apparently it's time to stop being such a slacker and hit the books. Or notes in my case. Attempting to do French Rev and Industrial Rev today. HA! I am too ambitious. Grr... I shall just do a very very fast reading of IR since I don't really want to choose that topic unless I really have to. They always trick us with seemingly easy questions that actually blow your mind.

I tell myself to wake up early every morning so that I can start at 8 and so I don't have to rush but look, it's already 8.35 and I'm still online and not fully awake yet. I feel like telling myself I can start at 9. Ya, I'll probably start at 9 since I need to make coffee. Dad stole the papers again, he makes off with the frontpage and HOME everyday where he goes to the Macs outside SN to read and do his work. Do you think FR is possible to finish in 3 hours? HAHAHAHA. I should stop making comments that make me laugh. It's been almost 2 years studing FR and I'm still so innocent. Like that's possible.

Oh well, perceptions of the mind. Been having really stupid and weird dreams that impede my ability to have some proper sleep like receiving a phone call from a friend saying that we're having a plant theme for school wear the next day, losing my shoes on the MRT, 6 classmates playing bridge in the school hall which is impossible on many counts and walking around parkway trying to find a lost dollar. I obviously need more sleep.

Yes, GP has done it again. Left me bewildered and lost in a jumble of words and paraphrasing. Such a weird compre we had too. Anyway, I doubt I really want to relive the whole experience by typing it out so it'll just remain a bad memory in the recesses of my brain.

Weird facts
I'm debating what colour to paint my toenails.

I feel like I've just finished my prelims and ought to celebrate.

Hermes carries nice ties but why do I care because I can't wear them.

I'm thinking about good looking guys in suits that aren't wet. (Thank you Hwee for making me have to write that everytime I write about suits)

I want to watch a chick flick or a show with an abundance of hot guys.

I want a cookie. Is there such a thing as a vanilla chocolate chip- strawberry cookie? I doubt so, I won't be fooled by the likes of Hwee! How can something be vanilla and chocolate at the same time? And can you imagine a cookie with strawberry jam spilling out when you're biting into it?

This is the end of weird facts because it's going to end up as my wishlist. Did you hear about the white elephants that were seen outside Buangkok station? Cardboard ones that represents the will of the people!! Ha.

Oh... feel like clubbing. Don't wanna go Zouk, it's too common and I just went to Mambo with JT sometime ago. It somehow didn't feel like clubbing... it was more like pubbing. We ended up paying what I feel is an extortionistic price for vodka and wasted a bit of our time fooling around and JT pretended to be gay which after a while wasn't funny because I ended up choking on the vodka which IS a HUGE waste and then we ended back at our condo having Jim Bean. Excuse me, shouldn't it then be more practical to just stay at the swimming pool instead of making the trip to a club? Even getting a ride in a Beemer isn't worth my precious studying time. Ha. It was sort of a birthday celebration.

And yes! After I came back from Parkway, having eaten lunch with a bunch of crazy folk ( JiaXun, JiaYing, Chermaine, Keith), I was trying to take my nap but couldn't and kept waking up thanks to my neighbours who were hooting around with their friends for more than 5 hours! They obviously don't have prelims or exams to study for! And I know for a fact that they're still schooling. I didn't have a good nap so excuse me if I feel like shooting them. It's not fun to wake up every 5 mins by a burst of grating laughter. BTW, watch people when they eat KFC chicken. JiaXun will amaze you. Haha. But it looked kinda cute so oh well.

Had cell on saturday where Clara brought Lala to Jude's house! I think Alpha was a wee bit in love with the bird but it was so tame and cute and yellow so who in the right mind won't love the bird? Did I mention before that everytime JoP wears contacts his eyes look so big...

Must go shopping! I got my shoes from Charles and Keith. I like them. Well, duh, if I didn't I wouldn't have bought them would I? Stupid comments. I recognize this, it's a tactic to stall the studying of history!

I need coffee.

Of all things to do the day before the GP prelims, I... blog. Perhaps I'm hoping that blogging will somehow tranforms my vocabulary to help me ace the comprehension because I know that essays will inevitably pull me down due to lack of examples.

I really should read more than the HOME, LIFE and SPORTS sections. The frontpage only interests me some times, and talking to my dad about certain issues makes me even more confused than anything. But I learnt... "Workfare not Welfare." Oh well, it's kinda late to be panicking so I guess I'll just hope for the best.

Ommm... Ommm... Let peace and tranquility pour over my soul...

Wonders of wonders... I'm actually looking forward to the end of Prelims and doing some kicking back and chilling before tackling the As. I hate going into the panic mode where I just freak out and waste my time trying to calm myself down. I shall think of things that make me happy.

OH... ya. Chelsea-West Brom 4-0. Spurs-Chelsea 2-0. WHEE... Now... I'm hoping that Charlton and Man U draw so that Chelsea will remain at the top of the table. 31 games in a row undefeated and 4 games without a goal being conceded... please let it continue! (My sister is thinking of making a Mourinho wallpaper for her blog background) And my dad is doing the flip between Liverpool and Man U. What kind of nonsense is that?? And Chelsea is in the same group as Liverpool for the Champions League... I'm sure you know that I'm going to say please let Chelsea win this time... especially with the controversy over the goal that allowed Liverpool to beat Chelsea to advance into the finals. I still remember Mr Seet doing that dance the day after!!!

I doubt all that football talk actually contributed to my GP knowledge.

I knew I shouldn't have A) slept in the afternoon for 4 hours and B) drank 2 cups of coffee without the words decaffinated.

The house is silent with everyone retiring to bed, dozing off even before 1030 in mid conversation with me. I figured that I'm not that boring so it must be tiredness. Moans about tomorrow's trigo test (from sis), moans about the 36 dollar shirt that didn't really go well with that pink florak skirt (from mum) and comments about people (aka my sis) using the computer for too long (from dad) mix together in an unintelligible babbling of voices while I sit at the computer trying to read a poem by Frost.

I'm still trying to read that poem but my inability to fall asleep is going to be translated into a short run (very very short run that is) around my house in the living room to get rid of the excess caffine, I just know it. And since I am in control of my own destiny, not like the Charmed ones were when the Avatars changed the world and the definition of good and evil, I shall do just that and tumble into bed to start dreaming of sweet memories.

whee... thanks to Drogba and what some may say was a fluke goal, Chelsea scores a win against Arsenal that happened on sunday. I was anxiously waiting for JianYong's SMS and was beside myself with joy with the news. Thank you thank you.

ugh. Integration and all things math is giving me a bloody headache. I shall start talking about my studies very soon again and my blog will turn from a pyschotic rambling of EPL matches and raves about Mourinho to a pyschotic rambling of the sick sick world of Prelims. Prelims are known for ruining lives and happiness. But notice how I haven't started raving about my lack of motivation, my lack of time, my lack of studying?? It's cos EPL has suddenly taken a whole new dimension into my life and it just gives me this happy happy high (though of course all that I've written about my lack of is once again quite true). But I doubt so that I will TOTALLY not complain, maybe just a bit but I don't want to see this semi-happy blog turning into something sad again. SO!!! CHELSEA. yeah. yeeaaahh.

*slides into little puddles of happiness* Mourinho's DA MAN. (remember no flames! this is my blog and my opinion)

yay for teeheehees. oh ya, that reminds me, Greg's hair is still rather weird looking but at least it's sticking back up in that cute scuffy way that I like. But why is it still brown??? Hwee, teeheehees and the CSI connection. oh, good luck Hwee for your piano exam!

what else. School's coming to an end. Good. I don't feel like going to school any longer. Lethagy is the order of the day. I feel like staying up and reading the bbc coverage of the chelsea-west brom match that refreshes automatically every 2 mins. see the lengths I have to go to because I have no SCV. *throws accusing looks at parents but they're oblivious as usual* hmm, I must say that my blog is getting pretty monotonous with all that Chelsea talk for non soccer fan readers. I shall try to remedy that.

Meeting Gladys on friday at perhaps Compass point. Time for some shopping and just plain hanging out!! For shoes... I need some more shoes. The going out kind, I only have a few pairs. Dad, my sis and I gave mum her birthday present early, me and my sis went back to PS Citigems and bought her a pendent. Wah, nice... can borrow it sometimes. hee.

And I can't find the Lion King 2 anywhere. When you don't want to buy it just yet, you see it everywhere but when you have the money and wanna give yourself a nice Disney treat, you can't find it. I bought the Lion King 3 though... Pretty cute... I love the Lion King. It makes me so happy.

I realised the laptop tires out eyes faster than the normal computer. I'll be living with the laptop until next year because my dad said that he'll only buy a new computer when the new version comes out which is next year. The keys are rather hard to press, especially when you're used to having your fingers fly over the keyboard. My bed awaits. Night night friends.

I, being asthmatic, though not having had an attack for more than 8 or more years, have become some sort of indictator for the haze situation. So you say that the haze doesn't really seem to be affecting us, but I've been feeling it. The coughing suddenly... it isn't because I'm getting sick, it's the haze. If it wasn't, I'll be having a sore throat right now. It better clear up soon, the haze, I mean.

Quek remarked that I didn't look so stressed this year, or more particularly, at this time where people start going cuckoo trying to burst their brains studying. Not true, not extremely, but sometimes I know that it's useless to keep worrying and doing nothing at all. Instead, it's better to just do your best and put the worrying aside. That said, I'll still worry of course, but just not in large quantities. Hee.

So let's talk about famine in Africa and the Presidential Election.

The link? It appeared in today's Straits Times.

Famine in Africa where one in three doesn't get food to eat. Or where one can go hungry 3 or 4 days in a row. Or where even when there's food, they can't keep it down. Pictures and situations meant to shock the world, to raise awareness of an issue that the UN will bring up come September 14. Let's hope soemthing can be done, that the goal set 5 years again by the UN for the new millennium to halve the amount of people suffering from famine to half. Sometimes even if we want to help out with aid, the political situation in that country doesn't allow us that option.

Presidential election and the lack of a contest. I agree that having an election would in a way legitamize the president, showing that he indeed was the people's choice. But then again, the previous person has been doing a good job...I know there was an article a while back that commented that electing the president wasn't as important as electing the ministers that would rule the country. True, true. I don't want to debate the issue of whether it does matter or not, but rather, let's look forward to the General Election. Commenting on political issues has always be rather iffy.

Service. A rather simple word that can change a great deal. I suggest Citigems if anyone wants to get jewelry. The price is quite value for money for their quality and their service is fantastic. Even if the price was a little more than I was willing to pay, I might very well do so just because of the service I recieved. I went to several jewelry stores on friday, just to look see for a present for mum, which I could actually afford. Without a doubt, the man who served me at Citigems was the best. He was told outright that there would be no buying today, but yet he showed me the jewelry and introduced products with enough finnase to not be pushy. I suspect I'll return there to get MY own stuff in the future. Even the other lady who served me for a little while when he went to take a break was nice. And the price wasn't that frightening, the designs eye-catching. The salesguy said "It's nice isn't it, I can see in your eyes that you want it too." Haha, too true. Now if only money dropped from the sky.

To the peeps who wrote in my birthday card from a53... Thank you for the CK perfume! I love you. (But this year no Chelsea stuff except from parents.. a bit sad but nevermind! :P)

Yes, Hwee, we're going to keep that CSI love alive!!! Haha. But seriously, what happened to Greg's hair?? Hwee said that his hairstylist went on strike, I must say I hope so because he's hair turned from ash blond to brown. And it's flat on his head. Weird. Anyway, CSI is more than just Greg... I know that! But I can't help it if I just love him. Hee.

EPL highlights yesterday got me laughing. Liverpool and Gerrard's hat-trick of chances, the penalty shot granted to Arsenal, Yobas's pass that led to Rooney's goal for Man U, Chelsea's last minute goal. Sigh. Luck? (In the case of the last 3 teams written. Or good?) But I know these teams are good, so it's hard to say anything considering it's the first match! 37 more to go.

Sleepy sleepy. Again. Grr...

I think for a man of 41, Mourinho looks really good. Haha, during the match, the commentator was saying how Mourinho's Armani suit was being auctioned off for charity. He does wear it well. I like guys in suits. Classy dinner suits or a black/white one. Not Hwee's wet suit thing/ :P haha, Don't kill me Hwee! Why does Hwee's name occur so much in just one post??

Meeting Nat on friday. It's sad to know that she'll be going back to UK soon. I'll miss her. Don't think sad thoughts, think happy ones! (Sounds like Peter Pan) Who knows? If I'm smart and lucky enough to get a scholarship, maybe I'll be the one going to UK next year.

My posts are all so happy happy these days. At least when I compare it to last year.

You just wonder why life is so confusing, we have so many choices to make, and any of those choices have so many implications that it's just mind boggling. Even worse is when you know you have to make a decision that may not be especially sensitive to someone else's feelings but you know that if you don't make that decision, you'll regret it for life. Ugh. How complex.

"Normally the wake-up call is when you lose. Today we had a wake-up call without losing any points." -Mourinho

Thank goodness for Crespo's last last minute goal. 93th minute, I sat there, disappointed, and suddenly there was a great roaring and all the players from Chelsea pile on someone. Crespo's incredible goal to secure 3 points. Could see Mourinho waving his arms towards the end and I respect him for acknowledging how good Wigan was and how Chelsea didn't play well in this game. Hopefully, it'll be a much better match next week against Arsenal.

Hmm... weather's been pretty humid/hot for the past few days. Been affected by it to the point of extreme lethagy. (Is that how you spell it) But yes, it's been making me rather tired so much so that I've come home for the last few days and gone straight to bed after my bath for a nap that lasts until dinner time. Aside from Monday when I had training. My last match of floorball against another CC. Only a friendly. I doubt I'll go back and play even when As end.

Supposed to be doing Math now, estimation tutorial... but sian. At least there's CSI and EPL Highlights later. whee.

Wigan deserves to be in the Premiership. And I hope Chelsea fights back and proves that they ARE the champions.

Grr... Rawr... Chelsea should have scored by the time it came to half time but they haven't! Even though they have possession about 60 % or more of the time, they had quite a number of times to score but they didn't! RAWR. They better score at least 2! I mean, it's against wigan!

Arsenal scored 2-0 against Newcastle. 81 and 87th minute I think. Okay, should go back and watch it at about 15-20 odd minutes time. Chelsea!!!

Had a pretty good birthday I would say. Didn't do much work but then again, that's to be expected. Who wants to study on their birthday. Yes, have to face up to facts, even though there's the advantage of legal drinking, clubbing, M18 movies and driving... I'm one year older. Went out with Sonya and YY and have NYDC and YY with Nette gave me a really nice pair of earrings that came from Hawaii and Jing with Glad gave me Love actually and Shrek 2. We were looking for the Lion King 2 and 3 but couldn't find it. Thanks so much you guys.

Went for Cell at Leong's place. Quite small group but they bought a cake for me and sang the birthday song... Super funny, John tried to play it on the guitar and it was really really slow and they sang it 4 times, haha. Then I blew all the candles out at one shot and the cell prayed for me.

Thanks for all the birthday wishes, it really meant a lot to me.

Congrats to Kaifong and Jialing! You guys got your PGA as well!!! Really proud of you guys and the effort you put in.

Going to Benita's house later to watch the Chelsea match. Tim, you better not be correct that there'll be an upset. I'll be really upset then! Thanks Benita... so must go pack my stuff for monday because I won't be coming home to sleep, instead going straight from her house to VJ. Hope I don't get lost!

I found out something today that made me wonder... then I wondered why I wonder so much.

Thanks for all the great presents! Even though today's not my birthday yet... Teehee. Yup, parents got me the Chelsea DVD, Quek and Min got me the Lion King and took me out for lunch, and Daryl G., my mortal from the angel-mortal game, got me the Hillsong CD! Thanks!

(Other people got me stuff too but I think I'll thank you guys tmr! Not that it isn't as important but there's a grouping to this you know... like the media stuff all together haha.)

And loads of thanks to Benita! Thank you for asking your mum if I could stayover to watch the Wigan-Chelsea match on the 14th! Really really happy about that!

Watched the first disc of the Lion King... so sad!!! Mufasa died!!! But I guess in a way, it taught his son the lesson about what it truly means to be a king. But still... Grr to Scar.

Anyway, with the EPL less than a day away and my birthday, I'm still 17 today! YOUNG!... I must say this... It's difficult to tell a true Chelsea fan apart nowadays. When I tell people I'm a Chelsea fan, they may assume that's a recent thing! It's not. It all started in 2000... where everyone either liked Liverpool or Man U. So I decided to choose a club that wasn't red, wasn't Liverpool or Man U... and I liked the name Chelsea so I chose the blues. That was in the initial stages of course, haha, it was to irritate people. But I remembered going home and checking out cfc and I liked it so I guess it stuck. That year 00/01, they were 6th position. Claudio Ranieri was the new manager. I guess I didn't really have that overwhelming passion for soccer then, cos I didn't play and being in an all girls school muted it some. It was pretty exciting, the 03/04 season, from 4th to 2nd place. Even more exciting was the last season. So if you think that I simply support Chelsea because of the recent win, I would say it's nonsense. I watched them stay at 6th place for 2 years! Okay, so now you know how the suaning people thing and choosing Chelsea turned into ... something else. ;) Yes, I must admit I wasn't a great football fan until I started playing the game and appreciating it, which was about 2-3? years ago, I know I didn't talk about it much when I was in Secondary school, but how many people had heard of Chelsea, football, EPL or even want to hear me talk about it? Only the commercialism...*cough* (you'll be surprised at how many people don't even know that Beckham is at Real Madrid now and what EPL is short for--no offence okay? =P). But yes, I'm a true fan. 6th place man! (My sis is just a fan of Mourinho) So here's to the next season of great skills... and good looking guys. haha.

off to watch the second disc!

I am proud to be a Singaporean. So Happy Birthday Singapore. I'm sure the lot of you really don't want to be hearing my yay for PAP and Singapore speech again so...

OMIGOD. WHY???? Chelsea-Wigan match is on the 14th! Still say what kick off the EPL with Chelsea-Wigan on the 13th my foot! Oh ya... Maybe it's 13 because of the time difference. Cheat my feelings!!! It's at 10.55PM on channel 23!!! *weeps. wails. cries.* Now I need to go to someone else's house to watch, plus it's at night and the next day got school!!! Unless I pon... hmm... hmm... argh... thinking thinking... I'm too distraught to think! My parents really don't want to order cable! How? This is just terrible. I need to calm down. I was supposed to go watch at Nat's house on the 13th night! That is... if it HAD been on saturday, but it's not!

BTW, had a good class outing at fish and co. on 08. had some sort of mini celebration at jack's today for me... and I spent the rest of the day sleeping it away. then woke up to watch the national day parade which was really good this year, better than last, and then watched shooting stars which for a local production wasn't half bad, better than chase at least.

Okay, my disappointment has yet to fade away. I'm inconsolable.

Okay apparently this thing is just really weird. Yes! During one of the outings that the girls had... Yes yes, shall try to upload another photo. But it's taking too long, approximately like 2 mins for one uploading so I shall put it on imagestation to let it sort itself out.

FOP was really really great. I was just praying to God that I would feel his presence and I did. I focused on the words of the songs, and just let it wash around me and just thought about how the Lord has changed my life and then I started tearing up. You know how sometimes non-christians don't understand why we jump and raise our hands when we praise? If you think as though you're at a rock concert, I think you'll understand. (Not that I'm equating the Lord and members of a rock band, it'll be an unfair comparison! :P) Delirious is really good too, their music style is different from Hillsong, more rock. The lead singer is quite good looking, haha, and he's 36! Hard to believe. Should have gone on friday though because it was so crowded by the time of about 5 plus? and the doors only open at 630 and it starts at 730! But it was well worth it.

Went out for lunch with my cell to pizzahut after church. Super funny people. Reached home at 2 because I had to do all my homework! But didn't manage to finish the SBQ, only did lit and S paper. My lit is quite doomed! I didn't know how to answer the question so I just wrote about the past and so it turned out really weird but I'm too lazy to write a better one so I'm just hoping that I won't fail. Argh. I'm still supposed to tell my parents where I want to go and celebrate my bday. I can't think of a nice restaurant at the moment.

I shall now attempt to do something I have never tried to do before.
I have thus concluded that perhaps imagestation is more friendly to people like me, whom technology doesn't really consider as friends. Nonetheless, I shall put images on my blog and also using imagestation.

While I'm waiting and waiting and waiting for the images to load while the laptop hums busily (which is quite scary) I shall tell you how much I want to watch tonight FA community shield Chelsea-Arsenal match though I can't cos yes, no SCV. Anyway, I messaged my cousin to see if he was booked out from army so I could go to his house and watch it and he sent back that he was in Brunei still! Oh no... I hope he has autoroam or else I pay big time! He passed his jcc, he must be so proud. Looks like Daniel Ong, my other cousin, is in army as well. BMT probably. Haha, I also messaged DT and he said he was in OCS too! Hmm... I wonder if Simon knows him. He's now officially a Chelsea fan instead of Arsenal. Yay!!! More people to like Chelsea! Good taste, good taste. Ok, my uploading is done, I wait in anticipation while I press "Done"

Here goes. Ok, someone tell me why I don't see the photos appearing! Great. I shall try again. This is simply too sad to be true.

Great globs of gobbles. I'm so pumped about going for Festival of Praise! Didn't go last year but went the year before that I remember cos at first didn't want to go for it cos wasn't very close to my cell group at that time! But I'm sure it's different now and everything's gonna be fantastic! We're meeting at 430 and the doors only open at 6! But I suppose some people will be late (like me) and we're gonna get dinner or something first. TEEHEEHEE.

I'm loving Hwee's Teeheehee's. They make me feel so unlike myself. My goal is to one day bounce about and dance on the ceiling. (I'm actually supposed to be studying something before I leave for FOP but I think I'm too excited to study much)

Waiting for the Kino sale proved to be fruitless. Now that they've introduced the privilage card, only members will get the 20% sale courtesy of their anniversary. Grr... Gladys went today but I didn't have time to go with her and thus cannot get my Watcher's Guide Vol. 3 anymore! She didn't have enough money with her to buy it for me and I pay her back later. Should have thought of it on friday!

Guns N Roses coming to Singapore on Sep 3! But without Axl Rose and someone else I can't remember because I skimmed the newspaper article, anyway, doubt I'll be going unless I manage to somehow cough up the money and it's so close to prelims. This sucks.

Thanks Benita, for listening and understanding.

Just going back to SN today and talking with Quek and WeeMin amidst teasing and laughter, it struck me, that all too familiar cord, of the beauty of friendships. It was great talking to them, and is always great talking to Min on the bus when I go to school every morning and seeing Quek in class and laughing at her funny quirks. I wonder how different it would have been if Guides hadn't had a part to play in our friendship.

Came back and bumped into JT all sweaty from his run. He waited for me while I rushed upstairs to change for a quick jog around the "park". While he talked in a leisurely way while keeping up a steady pace, I struggled slightly behind him wheezing like I was about to have an asthma and heart attack at the same time. After a while, he walked and I "waddled" in my extremely slow jogging way and he just looked at me and smiled saying "It's a beautiful thing, friendship, from soccer to jogging to PS2 to comics to laughing to tears and wine with peanut butter (don't ask)." I was touched, we drifted apart and only started talking again this year and I do hope we'll keep in touch, most probably he'll be flying off to some distant land for further studies but... tis a beautiful thing he said even though I'm sure our friendship comprises more than that.

As for my friendship with non-guides people, especially YY and Sonya, I must say that it was great, just great having you there with me, more than good friends, you're the besties! Come on, it had to be tough trying to deal with someone like me, especially when you put a stressed Christine and stuff about guides together. We had our quirks... our mango tree... and weird jokes... intellectual conversations... and just plain messing about.

Which brings me to a strange person whom I would also consider a friend. My sister. That girl can be a real terror at times but I guess she'll always be there for me and even though I know she'll never admit it, I know she loves me in her own way. Through our fights and tears, there's laughter and joy and sharing in that way only siblings can have. She came home from guides and just sat at the foot of my bed and talked to me, with the ease and comfort of a sister... and friend.